Ndikhumbula indlela malunga nolusuku lwesixhenxe emva kokuzala, xa ndisithi, ndingaqeshwanga isitulo esinamavili kunye nomntwana, kwaza kwafika kum.
- Kulungile? Wazala ?! -Uye wandibetha, kanye apho ngokukhulula isisu sam, ukhunjuzwe kancinci iparashute evaliweyo. Ume kakubi phantsi kwe-t-shirt. -Ngoku kufuneka unciphise umzimba.
Ndiye ndaba lihlazo kakhulu.
Ndatyumka ndiphendula. Into ethile phakathi "Ewe, ulungile" kwaye "hamba ngaphaya kwesithandwa sakho", kodwa ibhunga liye entliziyweni. Ndinciphise kakhulu ukutya, ngamandla emithambo kwaye ndilahle ngokukhawuleza kakhulu. Kodwa ngokutsho kwe-psyche kwaye emzimbeni itshatile, kunjalo, kubuhlungu kakhulu. Ndiyaqonda ukuba ndothuka, zeziphi iziphumo ngaphandle kwe-insomnia kunye noxinzelelo oluqhubekayo zinokuba ne-acne yam, kwaye ndisoyika. Kodwa bekunokwenzeka ukulinda nje iinyanga ezimbalwa, kwaye ngokuzolileyo, ngaphandle kwe-hysteria, faka isigqi. Kodwa wayeyindoda elungileyo kakhulu, lo mfazi. Khange acinge ngeenkcukacha.
Mamela, ndiguquke, mna ngokwam bendithetha ngomntu ngamehlo am: Batsho ukuba kutheni engayi kuyilungisa imeko? Thatha nje kwaye wenze. Kwiinyanga ezintathu, akukho ngxaki. Kwaye kwabonakala kum, njengamawakawaka abanye abantu abangayi kwiinkcukacha. Kwaye rhoqo kuzo, njengoko uyazi, uMtyholi ubuxoki.
Ngoku ithandwa kakhulu ngoluvo olunjalo lokuba umntu unokuzilungisa zonke izinto ebomini bakhe, kwaye ukuba akayilungisanga, akazange akhulule isidumbu kwisofa, kwaye kungcono ukuchaza Kulowo akabaqondi. Iya kwandula ke ihlazeke, ilungile. Ukuba zonke iingxaki ezikunqongopheni zentshukumisa, kwaye ukuba umntu uchanile, ngokunjalo, kunjalo, iinjongo, oko kuya kuba ngcono. Ke yenzani i-guru ezininzi, zifumana nemali.
Kwaye kwezi ngcinga zikhanyisela inkulu kakhulu ayinyani, kuba abantu bayalibala nantoni. Ukuze iimfuno zabantu zahlulwe zangamabanga aphantsi, ezisisiseko. Kunye neemfuno zomsebenzi ophezulu.
Kukho isiseko sendlu-kuya kulala, sizolile ngomso, kunye neemfuno ezisisiseko zohlobo lwentlawulo yamagumbi nokuthenga iimveliso ezisemgangathweni, zinexesha lokuphumla nokubuyisela, kwaye njalo.
Kwaye kukho i-face entle. Lo ngumzimba owomeleleyo, onamandla osebenza. Ezi ziinwele ezihlelwe kakuhle, ezi-matire, ezi mpahla, ekugqibeleni, apho bathanda ukunxiba abafazi kuzo zonke iintlobo zefashoni. Oku kukufundwa kweencwadi zemfashini kwi-psychology, kunye nokuzonwabisa okuqinisekileyo, kunye nantoni na.
Ngoku ifashoni yokwamkela abafazi ngenxa yabasetyhini, bebekwe. Yifuna ukuba ilungiswe ngokungxamisekileyo. Mayimangalisa ukuba kutheni engenakupeyinta uthango kwiNdlu. Kwaye ngeli xesha, mhlawumbi isiseko sele sijikeleze. Kwaye uyilo lonke luhlala kwiLizwi elithembekileyo kunye nephiko elinye. Kwaye akukho mfuneko yokuba uphazanyiswe kulungiso lweemfuno ezincinci. Kufuneka siqale kuqala imingxunya enkulu, kwaye ke sibandakanyeke ngokweenkcukacha.
Ingxaki kukwe koku kulandelayo, sifundisiwe. Sineentloni ukuba asizifezekisi iimfuno zenkampani ngokobunzima, umvuzo, ubuhle, njalo njalo. Kwaye iqinisekise ukuba ngaphakathi, uninzi lwethu aluzange lufunde. Ngapha koko, ngaphambi koko, ngoku yayingekho shishini.
Kutheni ndithetha? Ukwenza ubunzima obukhulu kwimiphumo yokuzala komntwana ngelixa umntwana wakho eguqulwe iminyaka engama-32 ubudala? Ukutshisa zonke iincwadi ezishukumisayo kwaye uzinkcenkceshele ngokupheleleyo kwisofa nge-ice cream? Ungaze uzame nantoni na? Hayi.
Ndi malunga nokuba ngamanye amaxesha, ndifuna ukunceda, asiboni ukuba kwenzeka ntoni emntwini. Simxelela into enje: "Qokelela, ungabi yingxowa!". Okanye udanise, wumbisa. Kwaye enyanisweni kufuneka ayeke nje. Uboya kwigumbi lokuhlambela kangangeyure enesiqingatha ngaphandle kwesiphumo. Makutye ukuzolile nangengqondo, ngaphandle kokuphazamisa mntu. Thula kancinci. Suka uhambe uye kwihambo ethuleyo.
Ngamanye amaxesha kunjalo nokuba lo nguwe.
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