Polina Titova: "Moyo wokhala ndi matenda a Bipolar si tsoka"

Zaka zisanu ndi chimodzi Iye anali atadzimvetsetsa kwathunthu zomwe zinali kuchitika naye, ndipo anali woipa kwambiri. Pambuyo pozindikira polinaina adaganiza zoyamba kuyankhula za izi. Chifukwa chake blofolina Blog idawonekera, yodzipereka kukhazikitsidwa ndi chikondi chake, osadalira chilichonse.

Polina, ndiuzeni chifukwa chomwe mudayambira blog ndi mutuwo?

Nditazindikira kuti, ndinazindikira kuti kuwonjezera pa ine pali anthu ena ambiri, achichepere ndi achikulire omwe ali ndi moyo ndipo sakumvetsetsa zomwe zimamuchitikira ndipo samafunafuna kukhala ndi moyo.

Ndinaganiza kuti mwina palibe amene amalankhula za izi za izi, ndiyesa kangati ndikanachita. Chifukwa chake, palibe masekondi omwe adazengereza nditayamba kumasula za moyo wanu.

Polina Titova / @ Ti Popopolina Kodi vuto lasokonezedwa liti?

Mankhwalawa atatu omwe amapezeka kumapeto kwa chaka cha 20188, patatha zaka zisanu ndi chimodzi, ndikadwala. Tinamvetsetsa izi ndi wazamisala, yemwe amandiyang'ana mpaka pano, pokambirana ndi kufotokoza za Anamnesis.

Vuto la malire limadzidziwitsa asanapumule, ndili ndi zaka 16. Akatswiri ena amakhulupirira kuti zitha kundibweretsera cholowa (pali fanizo lotere).

Zaka zisanu ndi chimodzi zikadapezeka kuti matendawa tisanachitike, ndimasamvetsetsa bwino zomwe zimandichitikira, ndinali woipa kwambiri!

Vuto la Bipolar lidawonekeranso pazaka 16, kenako bulimia. Poyamba, ndinali ndi matenda oopsa, omwe, momwe ndimawonekari, ndinakulirakulira. Koma adasinthidwa kukhala bulimia.

Anthu ambiri amakonda kuchita manyazi ndi amisala komanso chithandizo chawo ndi amisala. Kodi mudatani atamva matenda anu?

Ndisanatembenukire kwa adotolo, ndadziwa kale kuti ndimasokonekera. Ndinaganizira za iwo ndekha. Chowonadi ndi chakuti mfundo yoyambira inali kuyesa kudzipha mu 2018. Ndinagwira ntchito pa Yamal, chifukwa cha polar yozungulira, m'mudzi wa Sabelebet, ku chomera cha mafuta achilengedwe. Pokhala pamenepo, ndinayesetsa kuchepetsa zambiri ndi moyo.

M'mawa mwake mutalephera (mwamwayi) kuyesera ndidabwera kudzagwira ntchito ndikulemba mu njira zamaganizidwe mwadzidzidzi pangozi, komwe ndidayankhidwa kuti zomwe zidandichitikira zinali chizindikiro cha kuzindikiritsa kwathunthu. Ndinasangalala kwambiri ndikamawafotokozera izi. Chifukwa pamapeto pake ndinazindikira zomwe zimandichitikira.

Kudziwa za kusokonezeka kwamaganizidwe, munthu amatha kutsekeredwa yekha, amatha kudzidalira ndikukukulitsa nkhawa. Kodi zinatheka bwanji kuti mudzalandire nokha?

Mwambiri, ndi njira yayitali kwambiri. Ndipo, mwina, sindidabwera kudzadzitenga. Ili ndiye ntchito yayikulu, ndipo zikuwoneka kwa ine kuti ambiri a iye amatsogolera moyo wawo wonse. Ndiye kuti, kuvomerezedwa kumatanthauza kapena iyi ndi njira yamoyo.

Ndinakondwera kwambiri ndikamaika matenda amisala. Chifukwa pamapeto pake ndinazindikira zomwe zimandichitikira.

Ndinazindikira kuti kuzindikira sikungapite kulikonse. Makamaka, kusokonezeka kwa mpweya wambiri sikunathandizidwe. Ndipo iyi si tsoka, osati kutayika osati vuto! Izi ndi zomwe muyenera kuchita! Kuchokera pamenepa ndidayamba. Anayamba ndi mfundo yomwe pang'onopang'ono idayamba kupanga zizindikilo zawo.

Koma ndizovuta kwambiri kwa ine mkati mwa chimango cha zomwe ndili ndi bulimia, ndipo ichi ndi vuto la zovuta za chakudya komanso kusamvana ndi thupi - tengani thupi lanu. Pa izi, ndimakonda kwambiri ndipo nditha kunena kuti kuno ndidali panjira yovomera.

@tipopolina mubulogu yanu mumakuwuzani kufunikira kwanu nokha, samalani. Kodi chikondi chanu chimakhala bwanji?

Ndimaganiza tsiku lililonse, zomwe ndimakumbukira nthawi zonse. Uku ndikulandila mapiritsi, kumayitanitsa kwa wazamisala wanu, magawo omwe ali ndi psychotherapist. Zonsezi ndikudzisamalira nokha, ichi ndi chikondi changa. Koma ndimatha kunena mosamala kuti sindimabwera kuti ndimadzikonda. Ngakhale kufotokozera mawu awa, ndikumvetsetsa zomwe zikanakhala kutali ndi izi. Koma kuvomerezedwa kwa inu kulidi pamlingo wina, ndipo iyi ndi njira yanga.

Kodi mkazi amateteza chiyani?

Ndingayankhe motere. Mzimayi amalepheretsa kudwala kuti azikonda yekha. Miyezo yambiri yopusa yopepuka imayendetsa pamapangidwe osamveka. Zonsezi zimamulepheretsa kuti amvetsetse zenizeni zake zenizeni, zomwe akufuna kukhala. Zikuwoneka kuti zinthu zakunja zimapangidwa ndi anthu, mwa mawonekedwe a zomwe timalamulira pa media, ndikugwiritsa ntchito njira zosafunikira. Ndine wokondwa kwambiri kuti chizolowezi chathanzi chimawonedwa m'derali - chimango ichi chikuwonongeka. Ndipo ndizabwino!

Zomwe mumalemba, ndimaona zotsatira zodabwitsa pakugwira ntchito ndekha. Ndipo mwina muli ndi njira iliyonse yothana nanu mogwirizana. Momwe mungaphunzirire kukhalira nanu ku Lada?

Mwambiri, iyi ndi njira yomwe imayamba ndi kukhazikitsidwa kwanu ndipo zonse zomwe zimakuchitikirani. Ndikosavuta kuti nthawi zina muzimvetsetsa zomwe muli nazo, ndipo ichi ndiye mtengo waukulu. Nthawi zambiri munthu atayiwala, kusokoneza mfundo zina zina, kumapangitsa bwino.

Mzimayi amalepheretsa kudwala kuti azikonda yekha. Miyezo yambiri yopusa yopepuka imayendetsa pamapangidwe osamveka.

Amadzichezera kumagawo akunja omwe osatheka kwathunthu popanda kulera. Sizimachita bwino kumadera ena omwe amagwira ntchito pa iye yekha ndikuyanjana ndi zakunja. Koma iyi ndi msewu waukulu kwambiri, ndipo phunzirani kukhala ku Lada kukufuna, kuyambira zipinda zazing'ono zomwe muyenera kupanga tsiku ndi tsiku.